Okay so growing up sucks. I don’t even have to fully grow up yet and I’m already tired of it. I really am. I get so stressed and nervous to do adult-like things. Today I had to go to the car servicing place to get my car serviced. Obviously. I had no idea what to do. You have to pull into the open walkway type thing, and I felt like that was something I should never do. I don’t feel like it’s normal to drive through a building even if it has an opening large enough for a car. I was obviously confused. I asked a lady if I had to pull farther or just park there. I felt some judgment and attitude from her. Both are things that I don’t appreciate when I have no idea what I’m doing and just need some guidance. Anyways, a lady came over and started looking at the car. She took the mileage and asked what I wanted to do. I needed an oil change and a safety inspection because I had been driving around with expired plates and didn’t even know until now. Which of course now that I know, I’m going to get pulled over the instant I start driving.
So here I am, starting to sweat with a puzzled look on my face, and I am waiting to hear the verdict. There were three other things the car needed. Did I mention that I had tennis in an hour and was trying to squeeze this in? Well that’s what was happening. I started sweating a bit more. My tennis bag and water bottle were still in the car, which they had already pulled into the garage thingy. I told the lady that I needed to get those out. Keep in mind, during this whole experience I have NO IDEA what I am doing. When this happens, I get very awkward- more so than my usual awkward charm. She walked me back there to get my stuff out. I called my mom to tell her the new things that needed to be done. Blah, blah, blah. She came to pick me up to go to tennis. Then we had to go back to pick up the car before I had to be at work at 6:00.
I am writing about this because yes I did just conquer some form of adulting by going by myself to do this, but I also was sweating and stressing and unsure of what to do the entire time. Then my mom had to come get me. That’s not necessarily conquering car service like a pro. Okay so I am kind of beating myself up about this. I need to look on the bright side: I got through it without preparation. That says a lot for me because I am a planner and usually need to know every step of what to do before I get myself into something. So I did it. Yay! I want to be a pro at everything even if I’ve never done anything like it before. There is nothing wrong with that until it makes you a nervous wreck who feels stupid for not knowing the ins and outs of car maintenance. I need to be proud. Which I am. I took a step into the adult world. I don’t have to be completely ready yet, and that’s okay.
Wow, I hope that was as inspirational as it seemed to me. Even if you don’t view it that way, it helped me change my thinking about how I handled what I would consider to be a stressful situation not necessarily with ease, but hey, I got through it.
Maybe this will be something that is comparable to something going on in your own life. You’re never too old or too young to feel stressed about a new experience. Cherish each little victory. Learn to look on the bright side. And yes I know- that is way easier said than done.
Faking It Made 