Day 49: “Parasite”
Guilt was instilled in me young
By my father
By the Father
Everything I did I did for others
Never taught to listen to me
Never taught to trust me
Never taught to love me
“Me me me”
“You’re selfish,
Devilish,
Of the flesh”
That’s what they said
What they say
A look in the mirror
Would destroy them
I never knew pleasure
Independence
Strength
Myself
That’s how control works
Questioning is only okay if you come back to the Truth
Ritualistic chants
Drink of the blood
Lifelong contracts
Give me money
All your money
You’re bad
Bad
Bad
But just five easy payments of your soul
Will make you good enough
Good
Good
Just like that
Bow your head
Give yourself
Wholly
Until there’s nothing left
Faking It Made 