Day 11: “Loading”
My eyes glaze over
the dreaded monotony
The clacks translate to an illuminated screen
20 lifeless faces stare back at me
through me
past me
we sit still
for an hour and 15 minutes
we make claims
too big for our brains
we smile and say thanks
we try not to dwell on
the fact that
we have to do it all again tomorrow
Connected disconnection: the modern classroom
Day 10: “Morning in the City”
Wake up and hear the birdies sing
Hear the Machinery clank and bang
Hear the sirens roar
Look out at blue skies
Concrete walkways
Giant slabs of brick
Smell the crisp air
the exhaust from motorized demons
the fumes from sidewalk smokers
Good morning D.C.
Good morning to me.
Day 9: “Good Night”
Lavender and peppermint
bring good sleep
I pray
Not another restless night
deep rest
dreamless
comfortable
peaceful
please
Day 8: “Existentialism”
Years feel like centuries
Who I was
A distant ancestor
Who I will be
A tiny speck
On the continuum of me’s there will be
I am
A microcosm
of the past, present, and dreamed future
I say goodbye to me tonight
And greet me in the morning
Ready to transform.
I am really enjoying this series and the sense of discipline in posting it is giving me. Overall, I feel like my writing is improving, and I am having fun. What more can you ask for, right?
Day 7: “Looking”
Looking back
Smiling at the past
Looking out
nostalgia sweetening my ears
Looking around
thankful
Looking in
Awe shattering my destructive thoughts
Looking
and truly seeing
Day 6: Untitled
Brightness of spring
Craving newness
new colors
new clothes
new passion
The air smells sweet
Nature craves attention
I crave newness
Day 5: “Meditation”
Introspection
Motivated Listening
Mindless buzz
Endless thoughts
Everybody QUIET!
Close the eyes
Relax the body
Follow the breath
Focus
Listen
Relax
Open the eyes
Rejoin the day
Day 4: “Rainy Day in College”
Trickling rain
My brain listens
I am cleansed
A new day
A new motivation
A new resolve
Artistic expression
Devoted attention
Intrigued interest
Exercise the body
Exercise the mind
Cleanse the spirit
Day 3: Untitled
Acceptance
Accountability
Asking questions
Acceptance
Understanding
Letting it go
Accountability
Acknowledging
Calling out
Asking questions
Digging deeper
Continuing
Acceptance
Accountability
Asking questions
Untethered
Free
Alive
As I continue this series, I find myself wanting to edit, change, and make excuses for the poems I create. I decided when I started this that I will not edit or judge what I create; I will just allow the poems to help me get things off of my chest. This is a challenge for me because I always seek perfection and want people to like me and like the work I create. As I share this poem, which happens to not be my most favorite thing I’ve ever written, I will grant myself grace and release the words into the void (aka the Internet). Maybe I will use this internal struggle as inspiration for my poem tomorrow. Stay tuned!
Day 2: Untitled
Tears threaten
My brain is flooded with nothingness
My only success
from the day
is learning about musicians and the making of music
But I have no motivation for actual classwork.
I feel like shit.
I need to calm down.
I need to loosen my reins on control.
