I am trying hard to succeed
I want the praise and attention
For my hard work and dedication
I am trying hard to win
I should be there by now
Why can’t I do it?
I am trying hard to stay positive
But I’m just so angry
At the game, at my opponent
At myself
I am trying hard to smile
To be proud
To be okay
I am trying hard to breathe deeply
The panic is climbing
My crying is deafening
I am trying hard to look at myself
In a positive light
With love and affection
I am trying hard to take away the pain
And make myself heal
And make myself comfortable
No more threats
No more pain
But no more achievement
I am trying hard to fall in love
With the sport I once loved
With the person I have become
I am trying hard to branch out
To break free
To be okay
I really want to be okay
I am trying but I am failing
I need help
I don’t know what I want
I am trying hard to make up my mind
I am trying hard to change my life
I am trying…
Am I trying too hard?
Faking It Made 