Day 25: “Anxiety”
My brain likes to make up stories
Not fun, heartwarming
Tuck-your-kids-in-bed kind of stories
No, they’re unnecessary
Disturbing
Wake-up-screaming kind of stories
Like why do I have a recurring thought that my cat will make it onto my balcony
And fall off
And why did I have a different thought today that my dog
(Who lives with my mom back home)
Would make it onto my balcony
(But in my head it wasn’t even my balcony—it looked different)
And jump onto my patio furniture
(That I don’t have)
And step onto the concrete ledge
(My balcony has steel bars)
And fall off
Horrifying
Unnecessary
Yet involuntary
I didn’t ask to have that thought
Yet it happened
I just have to pray I’m not psychic
And hope it’s just anxiety
Faking It Made 