A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 28

Day 28: “Growth”


If you told me a year ago that I’d be able to listen to myself

And take care of myself

Without thinking about it

Second nature


I’d say you’re crazy


My impulse was always to take care of others

Mediate

Put myself last

Be a good woman or girl

And leave my needs out of it


But recently I had a breakthrough


I took a moment to myself

I listened

I rested

I did what was best for me


That may sound simple

Obvious

But for me,

That’s huge


Because I didn’t have to convince myself to take a break

I just did what I needed in the moment

It was second nature


I guess therapy really does work

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 27

Day 27: “Life’s Joys”


One of my favorite things in life

Is the moving sidewalk at the airport


It brings me so much joy

I turn up the music in my headphones

And strut

And jam


It feels like freedom


Tonight, my flight was delayed by 3 hours

So I walked my ass down to the concourse between terminals

To walk the moving sidewalks in a loop

Hopping on

Hopping off

And back on again


This one even has a light show to make it that much more fun


I jammed

And I strutted


And I had the time of my life

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 25

Day 25: “Anxiety”


My brain likes to make up stories


Not fun, heartwarming

Tuck-your-kids-in-bed kind of stories


No, they’re unnecessary

Disturbing

Wake-up-screaming kind of stories


Like why do I have a recurring thought that my cat will make it onto my balcony

And fall off


And why did I have a different thought today that my dog

(Who lives with my mom back home)

Would make it onto my balcony

(But in my head it wasn’t even my balcony—it looked different)

And jump onto my patio furniture

(That I don’t have)

And step onto the concrete ledge

(My balcony has steel bars)

And fall off


Horrifying

Unnecessary

Yet involuntary


I didn’t ask to have that thought

Yet it happened


I just have to pray I’m not psychic

And hope it’s just anxiety

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 19

Day 19: “Reframe”


My brain is tired


Our apartment has bugs

Silverfish, the grossest kind


We still need to finish putting together furniture

So we can finally be moved in

5 months later


But


I did the dishes the other night,

With few complaints


My cat has been cuddly


And my partner and I are watching “Temptation Island”


It’s been a good week so far