Tag: anxiety

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 96

Day 96: “Not Feeling”

I don’t really feel like being witty

I don’t feel like being smart

I don’t feel like cracking jokes

I don’t feel like cracking smiles

But I also don’t feel like frowning

I don’t feel like pouting

I’m in an in-between place

The air is still

There is no sound

No time

I don’t feel like caring

I don’t feel like being numb

Maybe I’m just overwhelmed

By the state of the world

By everyday life

Maybe I just need a break

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 25

Day 25: “Anxiety”

My brain likes to make up stories

Not fun, heartwarming

Tuck-your-kids-in-bed kind of stories

No, they’re unnecessary

Disturbing

Wake-up-screaming kind of stories

Like why do I have a recurring thought that my cat will make it onto my balcony

And fall off

And why did I have a different thought today that my dog

(Who lives with my mom back home)

Would make it onto my balcony

(But in my head it wasn’t even my balcony—it looked different)

And jump onto my patio furniture

(That I don’t have)

And step onto the concrete ledge

(My balcony has steel bars)

And fall off

Horrifying

Unnecessary

Yet involuntary

I didn’t ask to have that thought

Yet it happened

I just have to pray I’m not psychic

And hope it’s just anxiety

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 16

Day 16: “Tell Me”

Tell me why

My heart palpitates

And races

For seemingly no reason

Tell me why

I get stressed

Because the kitchen towel

Isn’t where it should be

Tell me why

I can’t handle conflict

It stresses me out

When people disrespect me

Because I know that addressing it

Will be uncomfortable

Tell me why

I forget to breathe

And I get a headache

Because my brain isn’t getting the oxygen it needs

Tell me why

I neglect myself

When I’m busy

Or am talking to others

Or am doing literally anything

Tell me why

It’s so hard

To find the energy

To do anything

Tell me how

To fix it