Tag: sadness

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 163

Day 163: “Fear is a Synonym of Grief”

Grief is a lot of things

But a big one is fear

Fear of absence of physical presence

Fear of being left all alone

Fear of the unknown

Of having to be resilient

Of being pushed to resilience

Fear of missing someone

Every day

So badly

It hurts to your core

Fear of being in pain

Fear of the despair this pain brings

Fear of not being able to crawl out

Of the dark hole

Of loneliness

Sadness

Deep, deep despair

Of loss

It can really be debilitating if you let it

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 156

Day 156: “Grief Has No Age Limit”

Younger me

is grieving too

Grieving her kitty

Grieving her best friend

Grieving the sweet kitten she found in the tree out front

The one she fed and brought home

The one she cuddled with

And made a space for

The one she came home to from school

And pet

And chatted with

The one she listened to purring

As she drifted off to sleep

Younger me needs to curl up

With her stuffed animals

Watch “Hannah Montana”

And cry

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 145

Day 145: “Gone”

The day I’ve been dreading finally came

We had to say goodbye

Have to go on living

Without her

I don’t know how to do this

How to breathe

How to exist

Without her

Fifteen years

She was with me for my first period

Through high school

My senior year of college

My first apartment

My first relationship

She kept me company

Always

My heart is broken

I found her when I was nine

I brought her home

Fell in love with her

I think she fell in love with me too

Where do we go from here?

How do I function?

How do I live?

I’ll try not to drown

In my ocean of tears

As I listen to the recording of her purrs on my phone