Tag: sadness

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 207

Day 207: “Subconscious Grief”

Loss

Feels like a fading away

A slipping through my fingers

Lack

Not enough time

Love still to give

I can’t comprehend it

Can’t believe

He’s gone

They’re all gone

It doesn’t make sense

My dreams are full of attempts at changing it

Bringing him back

Actually, he never left

It doesn’t feel fair,

okay

It’s definitely not right

Sometimes I see the beauty in life and death

But more often than not I just feel sad

Mad

Oh so upset

There’s no resolution

Grief is a fickle thing

I guess I’ll just turn out the light

Try to get some sleep

And see if he’ll visit me in my dreams

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 204

Day 204: “Oceans Behind My Eyes”

You ever feel like there’s an ocean behind your eyes?

The tides are coming in

Getting stronger

There’s a flood risk

I’ve been feeling that way

It sits,

right behind my eyes

Close to spilling out,

washing away the shore

I think I know why

It’s grief

Loss

Missing someone,

Everyone

I want to let the tide roll in

Let the waves crash onto my cheeks

But I’m scared of what might float away in the water

That the shore might get washed away entirely

What will be left?

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 165

Day 165: “I’m Blue”

I’m sad

I’ve done everything I can

And I’m still sad

I’ve stayed up

And I’ve fallen asleep

I’ve cried

And I’ve sat still

Silent

I’ve worked out

I’ve eaten right

I’ve talked and I’ve talked

I’ve listened

I don’t know what else to do

To keep the sadness from taking me over completely

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 163

Day 163: “Fear is a Synonym of Grief”

Grief is a lot of things

But a big one is fear

Fear of absence of physical presence

Fear of being left all alone

Fear of the unknown

Of having to be resilient

Of being pushed to resilience

Fear of missing someone

Every day

So badly

It hurts to your core

Fear of being in pain

Fear of the despair this pain brings

Fear of not being able to crawl out

Of the dark hole

Of loneliness

Sadness

Deep, deep despair

Of loss

It can really be debilitating if you let it

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 156

Day 156: “Grief Has No Age Limit”

Younger me

is grieving too

Grieving her kitty

Grieving her best friend

Grieving the sweet kitten she found in the tree out front

The one she fed and brought home

The one she cuddled with

And made a space for

The one she came home to from school

And pet

And chatted with

The one she listened to purring

As she drifted off to sleep

Younger me needs to curl up

With her stuffed animals

Watch “Hannah Montana”

And cry