Day 212: “Indignant in the Face of Grief”
The more I know that death is part of life
It seems I’m more resistant
I don’t want to say goodbye
Don’t want to lose
To have lost
I want them all here
Everyone
Back and happy
And alive
Why is that too much to ask?
Day 210: “Freedom”
They say comparison
makes you feel like shit
Well, that’s not exactly the saying
I’m paraphrasing
I’ve been a bit stuck
And a bit jealous
of what others have accomplished
What freedom they have
Financial
Creative
And otherwise
I’d love to have the freedom to do whatever I want
Be whoever I want
Like truly
Wouldn’t we all?
Why can’t we have that?
What do we have to do to have that?
I’m actually asking
Because, believe me,
I’m trying
Day 208: “Champagne Problems”
We’re inconsequential
To the ebb and flow
of the universe
It existed before us
And will after us
The cosmos
Exist
Die
Recreate
Evolve
And we’re worried about that time we said you too when the waiter said enjoy the food
Day 207: “Subconscious Grief”
Loss
Feels like a fading away
A slipping through my fingers
Lack
Not enough time
Love still to give
I can’t comprehend it
Can’t believe
He’s gone
They’re all gone
It doesn’t make sense
My dreams are full of attempts at changing it
Bringing him back
Actually, he never left
It doesn’t feel fair,
okay
It’s definitely not right
Sometimes I see the beauty in life and death
But more often than not I just feel sad
Mad
Oh so upset
There’s no resolution
Grief is a fickle thing
I guess I’ll just turn out the light
Try to get some sleep
And see if he’ll visit me in my dreams
Day 205: “Lighter”
Weight lifted
I can stretch out my wings,
Tight from lack of use
And fly
Anywhere
Everywhere
And realize
the weight was self-inflicted
But it’s also me who can shrug it off
And emerge
Lighter
Day 203: “The Present is a Friend”
Today I learned
I’ve been at war with the present moment
The now has always been a means to an end
A stop on the way to the great big something
The future I’m working toward
Clawing my way toward
But now is now
And that future is beautiful yet uncertain
Is in my mind
Not in my body
Today I’m refocusing
Getting back in my body
Putting my weapons down
And putting my arms out for the here and now
Day 199: “Depths of the Human Experience”
How do you heal all of the versions of you?
How do you dig deep,
bring it all to the surface
and feel?
It’s daunting
Not sure if I can dive that deep
Hold my breath for that long
Let me just dip my toes in
Day 193: “Magic”
Poetry is magic
A spell to release
feel
expel
It’s magic that heals
conjures
expands
There’s energy behind each word
It goes the direction you choose
What will I focus my magic on today?
Day 191: “In the Comments”
Why do people feel the need to
to bring the energy down
To hate
To spew
To spit
Why are they so miserable
that they have to tear people down
Summon storms to their parade
Stomp on their passions
Their joys
It’s honestly so sad
That we can’t all just be happy for each other
The comment section is a scary place
Day 190: “Therapy Wins”
Historically
I’ve felt embarrassed when I cry in front of others
Especially people I don’t know well…
Or at all
But tonight
I cried
I cried
And I cried
In front of people
I spoke and shared what I wanted to
With tears in my eyes
And a frog in my throat
I didn’t know I’d be so emotional!
But I shared
And I cried
And I cried
And I cried
I felt what I needed to
And I didn’t feel embarrassed
I didn’t feel judged
By others
But that wasn’t the point
I didn’t judge myself
Another win from therapy
Faking It Made 