Day 220: “The Hum of the Beetle”
When I see a beetle,
I don’t feel fear
Instead I’m reminded
To live a little
To live my life
Because death is coming
But life is now
Day 220: “The Hum of the Beetle”
When I see a beetle,
I don’t feel fear
Instead I’m reminded
To live a little
To live my life
Because death is coming
But life is now
Day 210: “Freedom”
They say comparison
makes you feel like shit
Well, that’s not exactly the saying
I’m paraphrasing
I’ve been a bit stuck
And a bit jealous
of what others have accomplished
What freedom they have
Financial
Creative
And otherwise
I’d love to have the freedom to do whatever I want
Be whoever I want
Like truly
Wouldn’t we all?
Why can’t we have that?
What do we have to do to have that?
I’m actually asking
Because, believe me,
I’m trying
Day 205: “Lighter”
Weight lifted
I can stretch out my wings,
Tight from lack of use
And fly
Anywhere
Everywhere
And realize
the weight was self-inflicted
But it’s also me who can shrug it off
And emerge
Lighter
Day 203: “The Present is a Friend”
Today I learned
I’ve been at war with the present moment
The now has always been a means to an end
A stop on the way to the great big something
The future I’m working toward
Clawing my way toward
But now is now
And that future is beautiful yet uncertain
Is in my mind
Not in my body
Today I’m refocusing
Getting back in my body
Putting my weapons down
And putting my arms out for the here and now
Day 201: “Mind the Gap”
Mind the gap
In your mind
As you walk
As you grow
There’s a stepping off point
Where a lift is needed
A new approach
A change in perspective
All events in life
are lessons in perspective
So take the step
Careful of the crevice
Or leap over it
And see what’s waiting on the other side
Day 199: “Depths of the Human Experience”
How do you heal all of the versions of you?
How do you dig deep,
bring it all to the surface
and feel?
It’s daunting
Not sure if I can dive that deep
Hold my breath for that long
Let me just dip my toes in
Day 198: “Habitual Growth”
I’m trying to be good
Strong
Productive
And I’m doing it
I’m actually doing it
Don’t pinch me
Let me keep this up
Wait until it becomes second nature
Day 190: “Therapy Wins”
Historically
I’ve felt embarrassed when I cry in front of others
Especially people I don’t know well…
Or at all
But tonight
I cried
I cried
And I cried
In front of people
I spoke and shared what I wanted to
With tears in my eyes
And a frog in my throat
I didn’t know I’d be so emotional!
But I shared
And I cried
And I cried
And I cried
I felt what I needed to
And I didn’t feel embarrassed
I didn’t feel judged
By others
But that wasn’t the point
I didn’t judge myself
Another win from therapy
Day 189: “Stay the Course”
The future I envision
makes my heart swell
my face light up
my body relax
my soul smile
It centers me
Pushes me
Steers me
Let me figure out how to make it happen
Day 187: “Waiting Game”
Why are we constantly in a waiting game?
Waiting for this to happen so I can finally make that change and be fulfilled
I blame society
For needing money and stability
But I really want to just say fuck it
And live the life of my dreams
What if I don’t have to wait?
Maybe what’s really holding me back is fear