Day 187: “Waiting Game”
Why are we constantly in a waiting game?
Waiting for this to happen so I can finally make that change and be fulfilled
I blame society
For needing money and stability
But I really want to just say fuck it
And live the life of my dreams
What if I don’t have to wait?
Maybe what’s really holding me back is fear
Day 184: “Growing Up”
I remember
When the days were simpler
When my hands were smaller
When my eyes were bigger
I remember
When my heart beat faster
When the stars shone brighter
When the world fit into my small town
When I carried more
Felt less
When my fluttering heart couldn’t take much more
When my shoulders slumped
And my head fell
When I didn’t know what I’m worth
When I smiled more
When I pushed myself aside
for the greater good
for the greater god
Now
Shoulders back
My head sits higher
I feel
And only carry what I need
I put stuff down
Run carefree
I breathe
I’ve learned to jump
And fly
And listen to me
I feel my power
Know within
What a joy it is
to grow up
Day 183: “New Leaf”
Staring out the window
On a long ride
Wondering about the future
Wondering when it’s time
Tired
Beaten down
When is it time
To get out of town
To drive away
Start another
Start again
Leave it all behind
Riding steady
Build the life I want
Brick by brick
Open up
Turn the page
Write a new chapter
Begin again
I guess I don’t have to wait
Day 182: “Thinker”
Sometimes you have to look at it from the outside
Ask for help
Travel around the edges of the problem
Searching for a crack,
A crevice,
You can sneak through
Sometimes consulting someone else
Is enough to spot the space
Where you can shimmy in
And make a change
And sometimes
It’s even easier than you thought
Day 176: “Lessons From Mom”
How to be open
Welcoming
Giving
Kind
Smart
Empathetic
Caring
How to smile
Laugh
Give great hugs
Say ‘I love you’
How to be brave
Confident
Strong
Proud
How to make friends
Smile at strangers
Talk to people
How to release
Feel
Surrender
How to be there
For others
For myself
How to grow
Learn
Evolve
Day 175: “You Can Set You Free”
Knowing yourself
Gives you freedom
If you truly know who you are
What makes you happy
Where you feel most aligned
Then judgment means nothing
You don’t believe the negativity
Because it simply isn’t true
To you
You don’t take on anything that dims you
You don’t accept the shame others try to give you
It’s not easy though
But spending time with yourself
Paying attention to what makes you feel incredible
Alive
Centered
That’s the makings of an authentic you
You want to be unapologetically yourself
You want to be unashamed
Then get to know yourself
And do what makes you happy
Watch what holds you back fall away
And rise as the most you you there is
Day 174: “Never Leave”
Even without her
She’s still teaching me
Helping me
to learn to be alone
be with myself
To enjoy the stillness
And quiet
To get to know myself
She’s not physically here
But her love is still teaching me
To love me
Day 171: “Life is a Constant Change”
I haven’t met the me
That will wake up tomorrow
Or the me that will be walking down the street
A week from now
I’ve said goodbye to many me’s
Some linger
But I’m a new me
Every day
Every minute
Growing
Changing
Getting older
Hopefully wiser
Living
So I’ll rest my head tonight
And say goodbye
Ready to greet the new me in the morning
Day 170: “Step Counter”
Each step
Pushes me further
Lift my left
Then my right
Move
Along and along
Until
I’m where I want to be
But all the while
On the path to reinvention
I’m right where I’m supposed to be
Day 168: “Life Exists in the Resting”
Stillness
Quiet
I can see the mountains
Hear the birds
Feel my heart
My chest
My body
Feel the soil
Grounded
Still
Perched
Resting
Until I’m ready to take flight
Faking It Made 