stress – Faking It Made

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 223

Day 223: “Pivot”

I recently discovered

I have the ability to pivot

It wasn’t there before

Developed

Over time

I’m not quite go-with-the-flow

But I’m on my way

To not being a total control freak

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 219

Day 219: “Fear: an Outlook on Life”

I realize that there’s always two outlooks

Sometimes more

ways to look at things

Find the good

The positive

But it’s hard

when you’re scared

scared of loss

scared of that feeling

scared to be alone

I don’t want to be left alone

I’ve felt it before

And it’s terrible

I know that I’m never alone

I have myself

And blah, blah, blah

But sometimes I need to wallow

Sit in fear

Stir in imagined disaster

I’m not sure why that is

But that’s where I’m at now

I’ll lay my head

down to rest

And hope the fear doesn’t spill into my dreams

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 206

Day 206: “Overwhelming Turn of Events”

Today was overwhelming

So overwhelming I overflowed

I freaked out

Hit a wall

Cried

My partner held me

I talked it out

Now I feel much better

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 192

Day 192: “Overwhelm”

I need to follow a schedule

I need to find a system

I want to write

I want to relax

I have to work

I have to work out

I need to cook

I want to rest

I want to read

I sit and stare

I sit and scroll

There’s a lot going on at the moment

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 157

Day 157: “Inside My Brain”

Crickets

My brain is currently crickets

Well actually it’s bees

And flies

Swarming

There’s noise and wind and stickiness and

It’s a ruckus

The sun is shining, though

There’s open fields

Wildflowers

Swarming and buzzing and swarming and buzzing

And the occasional cricket

When I lose my train of thought

Or lose the inspiration

Flies and swarming bees

I’d like quiet

And to not be at risk of being bitten or stung

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 152

Day 152: “Travel Ritual”

Why is it

That every time I go out of town

I fall apart before

I have to get everything done

And somehow I left everything for the last minute

As I’m writing this

I need to do the dishes

Put my clothes away

And pack

But I think I’ll just watch Secret Lives of Mormon Wives with my boyfriend

I can sleep on the bus

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 130

Day 130: “Deep Breaths”

I’m happy to report

That I breathed today

Deep inhales

And exhales

When I was stressed,

I took a deep breath

When I was tired,

I took a deep breath

When I was annoyed,

I took a deep breath

I felt calm, cool, and collected

Deep breathing looks good on me

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 96

Day 96: “Not Feeling”

I don’t really feel like being witty

I don’t feel like being smart

I don’t feel like cracking jokes

I don’t feel like cracking smiles

But I also don’t feel like frowning

I don’t feel like pouting

I’m in an in-between place

The air is still

There is no sound

No time

I don’t feel like caring

I don’t feel like being numb

Maybe I’m just overwhelmed

By the state of the world

By everyday life

Maybe I just need a break

A Poem a Day: a Series – Day 62

Day 62: “Canker Sore”

I have a canker sore

A huge one

In the back of my mouth

Right side

It hurts

I showed my boyfriend

Opened wide and shined a flashlight

He said he didn’t even need the light

It’s that big

I get them when I’m stressed

Makes sense why I have one now

I need a break

A breather

Deep breaths

Out

Maybe a couple days off will help

A day in bed

Staring at my phone

Is bound to do the trick

A nice long shower

Self care

There

The pain will magically go away