Day 133: “Enough”
When did we stop becoming enough for ourselves?
When did we begin reaching out to others
To the heavens
To feel complete
Whole
Okay
When will we realize
That ‘enough’ comes from within?
Day 133: “Enough”
When did we stop becoming enough for ourselves?
When did we begin reaching out to others
To the heavens
To feel complete
Whole
Okay
When will we realize
That ‘enough’ comes from within?
Day 132: “Problem-Solving”
Valentine’s Day
Hearts and flowers
Chocolates
Cake
Nice dinners
Cards
Poems
Love
But what I’ve discovered
is I love a good balloon
You see, our cat likes to eat flowers
So my partner can’t really get them for me
Without us having to diligently watch the flowers at all times
Or even keep them in the fridge
This year, though, he found a great solution
He got me a balloon that says, “I love you!”
And let me tell you, “I love it!”
Day 131: “Happy”
It’s a beautiful feeling
To be totally yourself
With someone else
To laugh
To sing
To love
I don’t know what else to say
I’m just so happy
Day 128: “América”
Es una celebración
De amor
Vida
El amor de la vida
La familia
Les vecines
El barrio
La hacienda
Es el amor
Es la alegría
Es la comunidad
Es les latines
Es todes
Es bonita
Es América
Day 107: “Feel What You Need”
The body knows
Feels
Remembers
It’s good to be gentle with yourself
Let it out
Stay in
Dream
Feel
Let yourself feel
Breathe
And let love in
Release
Love is something that can happen anywhere
Anytime
Like death
You never know when it might come for you
For me
It happened gradually
But the day it hit me
It was sudden
Knowing
Glowing
“I love him”
We were in my twin-sized bed in my junior year dorm
And he was talking about a nightmare he had the night before
A boar was chasing him
And he was going on and on
And then he got off on a tangent about a guy who he used to be friends with but wasn’t anymore
And as he talked and talked and talked
It dawned on me,
“I love this man”
It wasn’t a, “I think I love him”
It was a full-blown, all-knowing love
My heart swelled and soared
“I love him”
Day 105: “Jackpot”
Falling in love is a lot like winning the lottery
Well I’ve never actually won the lottery
And I’ve only fallen in love once
But I can imagine they feel similar
They both change your lives
Make you a different person
Hopefully for the better
Day 103: “Cheap Rings”
When we were at my grandparents house
going through their things
I found their 25-year wedding anniversary book
It was frilly and white
With a padded heart on the front
White ruffles
And lace
Plastic pearls
A product of the late 1970s
What caught my eye
were these two rings
They might be made of metal
Whatever it is is lightweight, thin
They were together on the aforementioned string of pearls
We had to get rid of things
But I couldn’t stop thinking about those rings
Before the book, in all its vintage bridal glory, was thrown out
I cut the string and grabbed the rings
For a while I wore one on each ring finger
They’re really pretty
Silver
With floral markings “engraved”
And “HONG KONG” written on the inside of the bands
The signature of only the most expensive jewelry
But they don’t turn my fingers green
I lost one of them
It fell behind the fridge at my old apartment
I was really upset
Felt like I lost my grandparents for a second time
But I keep the other close
Wear it often
Mostly on my left ring finger
To summon the love of my grandma
Day 90: “If My Life Was Written and Directed by Nora Ephron”
Sometimes I imagine what it’d be like
To live in a 90s rom com
I’d live in New York
Obviously
I’d own a book store
Or be a writer
Or be a writer who owns a book store
And I’d meet the love of my life online
My computer chiming, “You’ve got mail”
I’d wear clothes that are comfy, effortless, stylish
My name would be an alliteration
I’d battle the big bad chain store
Only to be put out of business and have to start my life over
Have to chase other dreams
And the love I met online would end up doing the tiny, little thing — you know, putting me out of business
Yet he’d regain my trust
Become my friend
And then we’d meet
And kiss in Riverside Park
And I’d publish a children’s book
Well, my life is not written and directed by Nora Ephron
But I’ve found my love
We did meet online
Just via an app instead of a chat room
I already model my fashion after Meg Ryan in the 90s
Now I just have to chase my dreams
Become a bookshop owner
Or a writer
Or a writer who owns a book shop
Publish a book
And live happily ever after
Day 89: “Cappa Jo”
When I lay my head
on my pillow
where my cat is waiting
purring
I sink into her calmness
and in that moment
everything is okay
As I lay
listening to her purrs
my headache goes away
my neck relaxes
my eyes close
my hands trace her soft fur
I feel okay
I feel whole
I feel loved
I feel like everything is going to be okay