Day 87: “For Good”
Loss
teaches us
shapes us
makes us
inspires us
breaks us
molds us
reminds us
kills us
builds us
changes us
We just have to find the good
The legacy
The love
To rebuild
remember
regrow
replenish
Restart
Day 87: “For Good”
Loss
teaches us
shapes us
makes us
inspires us
breaks us
molds us
reminds us
kills us
builds us
changes us
We just have to find the good
The legacy
The love
To rebuild
remember
regrow
replenish
Restart
Day 86: “Empty Cup”
So much excitement
So much love
and celebration
and love
and excitement
and celebration
I’m grateful
but I’m exhausted
Day 85: “Chill in the Air”
I saw my breath this morning
Outside, in the cold
I smiled
I almost cried
It finally feels like fall
Day 84: “Purgatory”
Maybe today I will have answers
Maybe I’ll know
Even if it’s bad news
Sometimes it’s just good to know
It stops the ups and downs
The constant fluctuations
Maybe after today I’ll be consistently sad
At least I’ll know what to expect
Day 83: “Bad News (Reprise)”
I got bad news
And I cried
And it felt shitty
Just when I started to feel better,
okay,
whole
Bad news came
A tumultuous ride,
impending death
I don’t want to know
What life is like
Without her
Bad news behemoth
Oceans of tears
How are you supposed to live at a time like this?
Day 82: “Annoyance”
Eye roll to the highest degree
You’re annoying me
Let’s take a moment
Wait it out
Blame it on the full moon
Day 81: “Bottle It Up!”
I’d like to bottle up pure joy
And keep it for a rainy day
Something to wash over me
And make everything okay
I feel it sometimes
When I’m purely in the present
It’s hard to remember
When I’m lost in my head
I’ll say it now
So maybe I’ll remember
I can make my joy
I can bring me peace
Day 80: “What Do You Do”
What do you do
When your pet is dying
My heart is breaking
I wish she could tell me what she needs
I don’t want her to be in pain
I can’t stop crying
How do I know when it’s her time?
Now she just lays with me
I cry
And she’s probably wondering, “What’s her problem?”
Day 79: “Death Doesn’t Make You a Hero”
Death doesn’t absolve you of the damage you did when you were alive
Let me say that in terms you’ll understand
Death doesn’t erase your sins on earth
We have a real problem with telling it like it is in this country
We’re really afraid to speak ill of the dead
Why?
Some people were monsters and should be remembered as such
No, death does not make you a good person
No, not even a tragic death
Death does give the final say
Often in conjunction with irony
Giving a deeper meaning
Please, don’t lose the plot
A horrible, hateful, racist, homophobic, transphobic, Islamophobic, misogynistic, sexist, pro-genocide man in life
Doesn’t make a hero in death
You can’t just chalk it up to a difference of political opinion
A tirade against anyone who is not straight, cisgender and white is NOT a product of political opinion
It is a product of violence and hate
And you can’t hide behind religion
A man who stood for violence in many forms
Met his death with a bullet
A death no one should face
But for someone so obsessed with guns
It sounds like fate
Day 78: “Oh, Theater!”
The theater is a place
Where you can be someone else for a time
A moment
You can watch something serious
Or sad
Or funny
And be immersed in it
Real life? What’s that
The only real life is Mary Todd Lincoln’s obsession with cabaret and Abe Lincoln’s obsession with men and John Wilkes Booth’s obsession with Abe Lincoln
The theater is a magical place