Day 220: “The Hum of the Beetle”
When I see a beetle,
I don’t feel fear
Instead I’m reminded
To live a little
To live my life
Because death is coming
But life is now
Day 220: “The Hum of the Beetle”
When I see a beetle,
I don’t feel fear
Instead I’m reminded
To live a little
To live my life
Because death is coming
But life is now
Day 186: “The Movies”
We come to this place
To be transported
Another place
Another time
Another version of ourselves
We have aspirations
Fears
Laughs
We want to see play out
We push the button
Put our feet up
And relax into 2 hours of large-screen hilarity
Or passion
Or terror
Or whatever most excites us
We gawk at the previews
Planning our next move
Excited to see what our neighbor deems unwatchable
The lights dim
The movie starts
We’ll exit once the sun goes down
Day 119: “Movie Review”
Have you ever gone to a movie
Not knowing what to expect
I read the synopsis
But it was so not what I thought
I wanted to watch an unlikely love story
Connecting against all odds
Falling in love in an unlikely place
A story of perseverance
Growth
Resilience
Of seeing and being seen
Instead I saw a devolution
A chaotic, vengeful mess
Lord-of-the-flies-esque mania
A thirst for power
At the expense of everyone else
I didn’t hate it
I saw what the filmmakers were trying to do
I just don’t feel like it all worked
Next time I think I’ll just help myself by seeing a different movie
Day 93: “The Realization at the End of a Movie”
What I’ve realized
Is that my dreams don’t have to make sense to anyone else
They don’t have to yearn the way I do
For the future I want
They don’t have to get it
Maybe they won’t
But I know I have something to offer this world
Something meaningful
“That’s nice, but I asked you what side you wanted. It comes with fries, but you can substitute for a salad instead.”
Day 90: “If My Life Was Written and Directed by Nora Ephron”
Sometimes I imagine what it’d be like
To live in a 90s rom com
I’d live in New York
Obviously
I’d own a book store
Or be a writer
Or be a writer who owns a book store
And I’d meet the love of my life online
My computer chiming, “You’ve got mail”
I’d wear clothes that are comfy, effortless, stylish
My name would be an alliteration
I’d battle the big bad chain store
Only to be put out of business and have to start my life over
Have to chase other dreams
And the love I met online would end up doing the tiny, little thing — you know, putting me out of business
Yet he’d regain my trust
Become my friend
And then we’d meet
And kiss in Riverside Park
And I’d publish a children’s book
Well, my life is not written and directed by Nora Ephron
But I’ve found my love
We did meet online
Just via an app instead of a chat room
I already model my fashion after Meg Ryan in the 90s
Now I just have to chase my dreams
Become a bookshop owner
Or a writer
Or a writer who owns a book shop
Publish a book
And live happily ever after