Day 80: “What Do You Do”
What do you do
When your pet is dying
My heart is breaking
I wish she could tell me what she needs
I don’t want her to be in pain
I can’t stop crying
How do I know when it’s her time?
Now she just lays with me
I cry
And she’s probably wondering, “What’s her problem?”
Day 79: “Death Doesn’t Make You a Hero”
Death doesn’t absolve you of the damage you did when you were alive
Let me say that in terms you’ll understand
Death doesn’t erase your sins on earth
We have a real problem with telling it like it is in this country
We’re really afraid to speak ill of the dead
Why?
Some people were monsters and should be remembered as such
No, death does not make you a good person
No, not even a tragic death
Death does give the final say
Often in conjunction with irony
Giving a deeper meaning
Please, don’t lose the plot
A horrible, hateful, racist, homophobic, transphobic, Islamophobic, misogynistic, sexist, pro-genocide man in life
Doesn’t make a hero in death
You can’t just chalk it up to a difference of political opinion
A tirade against anyone who is not straight, cisgender and white is NOT a product of political opinion
It is a product of violence and hate
And you can’t hide behind religion
A man who stood for violence in many forms
Met his death with a bullet
A death no one should face
But for someone so obsessed with guns
It sounds like fate
Day 78: “Oh, Theater!”
The theater is a place
Where you can be someone else for a time
A moment
You can watch something serious
Or sad
Or funny
And be immersed in it
Real life? What’s that
The only real life is Mary Todd Lincoln’s obsession with cabaret and Abe Lincoln’s obsession with men and John Wilkes Booth’s obsession with Abe Lincoln
The theater is a magical place
Day 77: “So Fall Begins”
The start of September
To me
Is the start of fall
I’m marking the occasion
With some fall decorating
A pumpkin spice latte
A fall craft
And “Practical Magic”
Let’s celebrate
Day 76: “Dentist Diaries”
Ok, I’m not one to be afraid to go to the dentist
But as I was sitting there
Getting my gums scraped raw
And my teeth picked at like a vulture picking the bones clean of roadside vermin
I couldn’t help but think,
“I get it”
Day 75: “Bad News”
I got some bad news
I was living in delusional bliss
Believing my cat would live forever
Never leave me
But that is not the case
I’m not stupid
I know she won’t live forever
But I can’t accept
That she’ll leave me
I’m not ready
Fingers crossed today’s bloodwork tells a different story
Day 74: “Solutions-Based”
What to do if
You can’t focus
You want to scream
You’re tired
You feel like crying
You want to jump
You feel stuck
Caught up
Over it
You want to move
Leave it all behind
You can find the answers to all of those issues one of two ways
Visit your local coffee shop
Get a new tattoo
You’re welcome
Day 73: “Dishes”
My body is tired
But accomplished
Still have to do the dishes though
Really not looking forward to that
I’ll get to them
I swear
I’m just going to chill on my phone first
Day 72: “Yearning”
Ready for the fall
The leaves falling
A new color palette
That brings warmth, comfort
A cozy night in
Apple cider
The rain splattering outside
Watching “Coraline”
Feeling so much nostalgia it hurts
Can it please be fall already?
Day 71: “Reminders”
A back scratch
The mountains
A white purse
Porch swings
Fruit
Dominoes
Shirley Temple
Peanut M&Ms
Expired goods
Jokes
Eggshells
Ginger ale
Shih tzus
Motor homes
Cacti
White sandals
All things that remind me of my grandma
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