Day 84: “Purgatory”
Maybe today I will have answers
Maybe I’ll know
Even if it’s bad news
Sometimes it’s just good to know
It stops the ups and downs
The constant fluctuations
Maybe after today I’ll be consistently sad
At least I’ll know what to expect
Day 83: “Bad News (Reprise)”
I got bad news
And I cried
And it felt shitty
Just when I started to feel better,
okay,
whole
Bad news came
A tumultuous ride,
impending death
I don’t want to know
What life is like
Without her
Bad news behemoth
Oceans of tears
How are you supposed to live at a time like this?
Day 80: “What Do You Do”
What do you do
When your pet is dying
My heart is breaking
I wish she could tell me what she needs
I don’t want her to be in pain
I can’t stop crying
How do I know when it’s her time?
Now she just lays with me
I cry
And she’s probably wondering, “What’s her problem?”
Day 75: “Bad News”
I got some bad news
I was living in delusional bliss
Believing my cat would live forever
Never leave me
But that is not the case
I’m not stupid
I know she won’t live forever
But I can’t accept
That she’ll leave me
I’m not ready
Fingers crossed today’s bloodwork tells a different story
Faking It Made 