Day 189: “Stay the Course”
The future I envision
makes my heart swell
my face light up
my body relax
my soul smile
It centers me
Pushes me
Steers me
Let me figure out how to make it happen
Day 189: “Stay the Course”
The future I envision
makes my heart swell
my face light up
my body relax
my soul smile
It centers me
Pushes me
Steers me
Let me figure out how to make it happen
Day 188: “Change”
Beautiful things
Are still an adjustment
Change in any way
Is a loss of the old
And gain of the new
It’s new
Lovely
Fun
Strange
Positive
New
It’s okay that it takes some time to get used to
Day 187: “Waiting Game”
Why are we constantly in a waiting game?
Waiting for this to happen so I can finally make that change and be fulfilled
I blame society
For needing money and stability
But I really want to just say fuck it
And live the life of my dreams
What if I don’t have to wait?
Maybe what’s really holding me back is fear
Day 186: “The Movies”
We come to this place
To be transported
Another place
Another time
Another version of ourselves
We have aspirations
Fears
Laughs
We want to see play out
We push the button
Put our feet up
And relax into 2 hours of large-screen hilarity
Or passion
Or terror
Or whatever most excites us
We gawk at the previews
Planning our next move
Excited to see what our neighbor deems unwatchable
The lights dim
The movie starts
We’ll exit once the sun goes down
Day 185: “Antisocial”
Sometimes all I want
Is quiet
To walk home
Without talking to another soul
What a beautiful day in the neighborhood
I’m fine to not be your neighbor
Day 184: “Growing Up”
I remember
When the days were simpler
When my hands were smaller
When my eyes were bigger
I remember
When my heart beat faster
When the stars shone brighter
When the world fit into my small town
When I carried more
Felt less
When my fluttering heart couldn’t take much more
When my shoulders slumped
And my head fell
When I didn’t know what I’m worth
When I smiled more
When I pushed myself aside
for the greater good
for the greater god
Now
Shoulders back
My head sits higher
I feel
And only carry what I need
I put stuff down
Run carefree
I breathe
I’ve learned to jump
And fly
And listen to me
I feel my power
Know within
What a joy it is
to grow up
Day 183: “New Leaf”
Staring out the window
On a long ride
Wondering about the future
Wondering when it’s time
Tired
Beaten down
When is it time
To get out of town
To drive away
Start another
Start again
Leave it all behind
Riding steady
Build the life I want
Brick by brick
Open up
Turn the page
Write a new chapter
Begin again
I guess I don’t have to wait
Day 182: “Thinker”
Sometimes you have to look at it from the outside
Ask for help
Travel around the edges of the problem
Searching for a crack,
A crevice,
You can sneak through
Sometimes consulting someone else
Is enough to spot the space
Where you can shimmy in
And make a change
And sometimes
It’s even easier than you thought
Day 181: “Creative Process”
I feel it
Tingling
I have an idea
I’ll sit with it
I’ll think
I’ll think
And I’ll think
And I’ll think
Then I might write something down
The remnants
The outskirts
Of the idea
Nothing fully developed
Not committing
Not wedded to anything
Not far enough to know if it sucks
Or if it’s brilliant
I’ll live in that space
The in-between
Just starting to form the ball
Kneading it
And kneading it
Until it’s overworked
Cracked and dry
Then I’ll stop thinking
Move on
Never even turning the oven on
Until another idea wriggles itself free
And into my line of sight
Day 180: “Harness the Moon”
Harness the moon
Sit with its brilliance, depth, beauty
Admire the sky
Lighting up the deep blue
Memorize the craters
The bright spots too
Harness the moon
Its quiet power
The way it glows
Ebbs and flows
Sit under the stars
Melt in the embers
Close your eyes
And absorb the lunar splendor